Poop

I get the feeling constantly that as soon as I'm trying to make something worth while, I start failing miserably.

It's kind of like, if I am cooking I can make something delicious as long as its for me, but as soon as I have to make something for someone else I immediately stop giving a fuck.
I either do too much or too little

Of course I'm not sure if this has any substance to the real world in a literal sense.
I just want to be a better human being, is that so bad?

Poop in the gutter aye?